I felt like a swarm of birds were caving in on me . . . like the chaos from flapping wings and distracting chirps were going to cause me to fall on the ground with no hope of standing back up. The world was pestering me with diversions and fears. I couldn’t look up for a moment to see Jesus standing right beside me offering to guide me out of the madness.
I recently embarked on a big transition phase of life. I moved from Nashville, Tennessee for a job in Florida, and it hasn’t been easy. I’ve met incredible people and loved so much of my time here, yet I still walked through a solid 60 days of wandering and questioning. I was emotionally vulnerable in this new state, and the enemy used that time to tempt me.
The first few weeks after I started my job, I was cruising through every day on autopilot. Moving to a new state only knowing a couple people can be overwhelming. I started working long days in the Florida sunshine with my “weekends” off being in the middle of the week. I had no structure, no normalcy, and definitely not enough time.
A typical day for me here is waking up early before work, making coffee and breakfast, going into a 9 or 10-hour shift where I might walk anywhere from 13-25 miles in a given day, coming home to make dinner, and then exhaustingly cleaning up before bed. It’s monotonous, and it’s tiring.
For awhile, I tried to do it on my own. I lived in brain fog because my days were so repetitive and pretty physically demanding. I was relying on my own strength and knowledge to pull me through each day because I felt like my normal quiet time with Yahweh had been stripped from me. Until one morning as I opened up my Bible . . .
Naturally Jesus was with me. That’s the thing — Jesus is with you in your brokenness. Even when you feel like you’ve drifted the farthest away from Him, Jesus is still with you.
As soon as I opened my Bible, a wave of peace rushed over me as I sipped in the sweetness of truth I’d been thirsting for:
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; You are Mine.”
–Isaiah 43:1 ESV
I’d been living each day in exhaustion and confusion because I was living without carving out time to revel in the goodness of my Creator. And if I have learned one thing from this experience so far, it’s that having an intimate relationship with Jesus requires dedicating time to Him.
The closest relationships people have are ones that have been built on communication, understanding, and compromise. Why would a relationship with Jesus be any different?
Dearest readers, today I pray that you would take your weary souls and dedicate any spare moments you have in your day to spending time with a precious One who will show you a relationship like you’ve never known.
In the seasons of change, in the destructive storms of self-harm, in the midst of mundane routine, and in the valley of discouragement, know that God is with you. Know that when you take time to talk with Him in your pain, you will immediately begin to feel a weight lifted from you — simply because He is God. He will consume your spirit with peace.
You might be in a spiritual drought, but the Holy Spirit never dies down in power. He remains the same yesterday, today, and forever. Simply trust in Him.