Have you ever felt distant, from everyone? Have you ever felt distant from God?
Distance from certain parts of your life can create clarity. For example, creating distance between yourself and certain people or negativity may bring peace into your life. There is a difference between healthy distance, and distancing yourself due to feelings of worthlessness, or feeling out of touch. It’s a heaviness you carry around with you. You are shut off to the world, to feeling, to emotion. You begin developing a pessimistic attitude, but how do you stop? How do you bring back the connection among people? How do you get back to a thriving relationship with God?
You’ve been on fire for God. Suddenly, unfortunate situations cause you to doubt what you know. You doubt God because bad things happen, or you see bad things happen to good people. You doubt God because of certain relationships. Issues can range from your parents, to boyfriends/girlfriends, and even with your very best friend.
What I noticed is the less I connected with God, the less I felt connected to anyone in my life. Sure, I could fake being “happy” and put on a smile. But the loneliness crept in as soon as I was alone. I longed for something more, and it couldn’t be found in people.
I’ve mentioned before that I dealt with OCD for eight years. The confusion and isolation contributed greatly to feeling disconnected. The blaming God for the disorder didn’t help much, either. As I still deal with obsessive compulsive tendencies, I can still feel that “lost” feeling from time to time. I feel as if I’m sitting still and the world is moving around me. I begin saying things and doing things that aren’t me. I’m quicker to anger, I’m unenthused. The guilt I feel from sinking into this phase keeps the cycle of defeat going longer. I question if I’m a good Christian because I’m so disconnected.
A lot of times, when you feel there’s no getting better, you won’t even try. You would rather something bad happen and you’re able to say you “knew that was going to happen” or “that’s why I didn’t get my hopes up.”
What direction you choose to take from here can determine how long you stay in this mindset. This is where your surroundings, your knowledge of God, and people in your life play an incredible role in helping you get back to “you” and get back to God. The amazing thing is, God is always there. He never leaves your side even when we seem to get lost along the way.
In 2 Timothy:13 (NKJV), the Bible says,
if we are faithless, He remains faithful, for He cannot deny himself.
You are a part of God. You are His child. There’s something sweet about being a child of God. It will bring tears to your eyes. It puts a smile on your face. You can be brought back to where you belong. You have peace. The tough shell you’ve put on is slowly cracked open and you feel your spirit jump. It’s Him. He has you in His right hand. You are righteous because you are His. You are never left alone, because you are His. You are forever connected to your Father. You have an unending source of joy, support, and strength.
So let God work His will in you.Yell a loud no to the Devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet yes to God and He’ll be there in no time. –James 4:8 (MSG, emphasis mine)
Go back to your Father and rejoice in your truth. Let no obstacle hinder you from receiving the love of God. He’s there with you every step of the way.
There with you,